Holy Shit. My last blog was December 21st, 2024. 17 months ago. I can hardly remember what I did yesterday, let alone 14 months ago, so I refreshed myself. I had only had a few events with my business, The Loud Sound Bath, and was so excited to see the future of what it is going to bring me.
I am happy to report that even working my full time job, being a wife, mom and everything else life demands of me. My business is still growing and thriving. At the exact pace I would like it to. I am in control 100% of the time and that makes my Type-A personality very happy.
I’ve put myself out into the world in ways I am proud of and am having a blast. Our daughter is nearing the end of her junior year of high school, work is going well for myself and my husband and we are all healthy and striving to be the best versions of ourselves every day.
I am so thrilled that this is my life and I wake up next to my best friend. There is so much insane chaos going on in the world that I do A LOT to protect my peace. If you know anything about me, you know how hard I have worked for it.
For many years of my life, especially my adult life…I spent so much time wondering and worrying what other people think or feel about me. Maybe it took me growing into my late 30’s early 40’s to realize and accept that none of that shit matters and no one is putting that much effort or thought into my comings and goings. I saw a meme one time of a sad person standing next to a happy person. Above both of them said “NO ONE GIVES A SHIT” I am choosing to be the happy person.
I find a lot of peace in knowing that NO ONE GIVES A SHIT is actually a good thing. I say this not to discredit my amazing support system, because they are amazing. I say this to remind myself that we are so small, and so insignificant in the grand scheme of life and the universe that I find it peaceful to know that I can let loose the fear of judgement of others because NO ONE GIVES A SHIT and it doesn’t matter anyway.
This is why I find such calm and stillness in nature. The vastness of it. On a ship in the ocean, miles away from land. In a huge forest in remote Alaska. On a walking trail at the local nature preserve or simply sitting on my porch. I can look around and see so much happening just in the grass and the tress, there is no way little ol’ me can fuck up in life so badly, I can ruin all of it. And that brings me peace.
When I told myself, hey, you have not blogged in awhile and I sat down today to write something up. I had no idea where I was going to go with it. I still don’t. Usually I like to have a topic or something but today, I smoked a joint, said let’s clear my head and here we are. If you take anything away from this, I hope you remember that NO ONE GIVES A SHIT. And that is a good thing.
Thanks for reading.
Adrienne